Kelsey Explained

Kelsey
The ship or island : Norse

Extremely intelligent in thought and deed you are gifted at communication and finding practical applications for your ideas. You are strong willed and ambitious and need to have passion, freedom and adventure in your life. Always willing to help others your warm, honest and loyal nature ensures that you are loved by all. It is likely that you will achieve a great deal of success and recognition in life.

I am June

This is me, I am June, obviously! *smiles*


JUNE:Easy to talk to. Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone* always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

Rock On.

So I worked the morning shift on Tuesday so I was able to catch Rockstar:INXS. Ty again blew me away. I actually had goosebumps and I don't even like rock music that much. He sang "Proud Mary" and I was glued to his image (above). I'm such a dork, reality tv oriented and all. This photo definately doesn't do him justice...he is way hotter than that! *smiles* Check out the show.

The weekend is almost here, I work tonight and then have three days off, which is awesome because this Dunster Music Fest is this weekend. I'm stoked to go. It is going to be really really fun I think. There are a couple of hip hop acts too which is pretty exciting. I'm excited to hang out with everyone too. I usually have to work at least a few shifts but not this time. I got all they days I requested. But then next week will be a long one...so it all works out.

I want to talk about something else here too. So in BC the teachers are thinking of going on strike. I am so pissed about it, be warned, this might turn into a rant. I don't think the teachers should be allowed to go on strike. It isn't like they are actually making a point. Seriously though. They will walk off the job for one day and then the government will legislate them back to work and they will end up looking ridiculous. Teachers are going on strike because they want more money, and because they have no contract as of this year. Well to be honest, I think it is a bunch of horseshit. The teachers make enough money already but even then, if they want more money they neeed to bargain for it, not strike. The only people who end up being affected by the strike are the kids. The government doesn't care. WHen I was in Grade 12 the teachers went out in May, which means that our final exams were postponed, which most kids would be really happy about however in BC we had these exams called Provinicals. All 12 students around the province have to write them and we are scored all together, which means that these are the marks that universities look at. Because ours had to be postponed means that generally most of the spots for Universities were already taken. Each test occurs at the same time around the province. I applied to a bunch of schools with my late test results and low and behold I got into my last choice school because the others were already full. I was beside myself I was so angry. My grades were really really good in highschool...definatley an A student. But I got over that one, I ended up loving my school and was happy I didn't move to Quebec. So then in my third and final year of university the union went on strike again. And again this was during the final exam time. And because both of my parents are part of the union (they work for the school district and mum is specialized) I was not allowed to cross the picket line. To make matters worse I was part of the student union so I was not even allowed to be involved with the negotiations. I recieved a call from two of my profs to say that if I missed my exams due to the strike that I would recieve a failing grade. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place so I did what any political science student would do...I went up to the school and to the picket line. I talked to the leader of the strike and told him what was going on...IE: that I have finals today to complete my degree, that I am paying money, my OWN money to be there, that my parents are both union members, that I understand what they are fighting for but that I can't say I agree and that because I am a member of the student union I might lose my position so that I can complete my exams. He was a bit stunned at the moment so I grabbed my cell and called my Mum. I was in tears because I didn't know what to do. On one hand the union has taken care of my family for my entire life. On the other hand I cannot just give up these classes. I had two left to complete my degree and had paid $1200 for each class of my hard earned monies. On yet another hand, I didn't think it fair that I lose my position within the student union for doing something that I saw no way around. Finally Mum picked up and said, "YOu cannot cross that picket line, for any reason." This made it even more hard. I talked more and more to the picket leader and finally we came to an agreement. He said he would sign a paper saying that they permitted me to go and write my final exams as long as I did not use any school facilities or spend any money within in the school, thus saying that I could walk in, sit down, write my finals and get out, not use the bathroom or anything else. We wrote our little contract on a napkin which I still have. It was a horrible day for me. Who were the victims of this strike? ME! AND MY FELLOW STUDENTS. I have several friends who took F's for what they believed in, and several friends who walked right through swearing at the picketers. They ended up on strike for one more day and then the government legislated them back to work. They ended up getting nothing that they went on strike for. They also ended up with lawsuits from students who lost money and grades. The issue is still talked about on campus. Strikes accomplish nothing. It is a totall waste. Blah blah blah. Enough of this.

Love TY. Watch the show. Rock on.

Yes I am the boss

*scream* I have so much to say all at the same time! First things first. So I got my pink hair back. It is awesome. I am more than beyond stoked about it!!! *Grins* I'll get some photos soon. So it is pink and black in the front, and blonde in the back. I know, sounds weird and you know what? It looks weird too, however, it is so cool that you can't stop looking at it and I can't stop smiling about it! *smiles* I'm so awesome.

Secondly, my John Legend CD's arrived today. They are INCREDIBLE. Did I mention that they are the BEST SONGS EVER? Or what about how AMAZING John Legend is? Yes, I adore the new CD as well as an older one I managed to get my hands on. It is truly amazing what the power of boobs can do...*laugh* Just kidding. I listened to each CD on my way home today, I was driving like 20 kph. For the Americans out there, that is Kilometers per hour, it is also on your mileage gage...makes it look like you're going real fast! My favourite song is still Ordinary People but I'm getting pretty hooked on "She don't need to know." Even though it is a song about cheating and that makes me mad. *laugh* John Legend could never upset me. He is truly a gift for me, his music is more than beautiful. Go buy it. Right now. You'll love it. I promise.

So in more exciting news, I have the weekend off. I'm going to go to Dunster to the concert. My sister is performing. Should be hilarious and fun. I hope it doesn't rain. But I'm super excited to go. It will be a really really fun time. *smiles* I love live music. And supposedly a really great conscious hip hop group is coming...so I can't wait to jam with some outrageous CANADIAN MC'ees. *smile* I am so stoked...I am so happy.

Other than that, I'm working the morning shift and feeling pretty exhausted so I should go. And maybe take a nap. or just listen to my new CD's again. Or perhaps just daydream. I love to daydream. About being in California or Texas, about seeing the Golden Gate Bridge or the Pyramids. Daydreams provide such an escape for me. I find myself daydreaming at the most inopportune times but once a daydream comes, you can't just ignore it. Besides that, it is a stress relief. *smiles* More to come.

my pink hair

Upon waking up today with a horrid hangover I am remembering how much I could party without consequence three years ago. I never had a hangover much less feeling like the bag of rotten potatoes I feel like right now. And I didn't even drink that much. This surely cannot mean that I at 24 years old am getting old? Can it? It is unreal to say the least. Work tonight shall be a fantastic time as Cammie is feeling the same way...we are quite the team. *laugh*In more good, no GREAT, news, I am reinstating the pink hair. For those of you who didn't know, for eight glorious months I had pink hair. Then all of a sudden I was worried about fading and lookign like a hoochie and we got rid of it and replaced my lovely pink hair with carmel and platinum blonde. That was over four months ago and to be honest, I'm still feeling the regret of removing the pink. My stylist finally has come through for me...she is going to let me do the pink again. You must understand that I am in her salon chair twice a month doing something else to my hair because it isn't cool enough, or it isn't exciting enough, I tell her, I NEED DRAMA, bring me the high energy excitment hair. We've tried alot of things and countless hours have been poured in my hair. She was adamnt for a long while that the pink was a thing of the past, but no, oh no, she has relented and I'm pleased as hawaiian punch! So keep your eyes peeled for ever more photos of me, with my pink hair. *yippee*

The Four Wine Bottles

So having finally recovered from drinking four bottles of wine to myself two days ago, this morning I'm feeling great. Yesterday morning wasn't as good. Thankfully I didn't get the full extent of a usual wine hangover, just felt crappy and pretty stunned all day. And what brought this on? I'm not too sure. I was just having a glass, and a glass turned into a bottle and one turned into four. I don't remember alot from the night, like I don't remember even opening the fifth bottle *yikes*, and I don't remember going to bed. I don't remember my friends leaving. Not good...but good at the same time. I love having days off.

So at work they fired the person who was making my working life hell. It came as a total shock to me. Seeingshow I'm leaving at the end of this month anyways. I can't wait to be home with George. I can't wait to head to San Diego and see my Californians. I can't wait to feel that hot heat of Texas on my skin and hear most everybody say y'all. I can't wait to shop whenever I want and actually bring the stuff home with me instead of waiting three weeks for it to arrive in the mail. I can't wait to hit up the clubs and dance until the wee hours of the morning. I can't wait to see John Legend or Kayne West live in some stadium or venue. Speaking of which, so the day before I moved to Washington from San Diego, Laurie and I went to this little place called Humphrey's by the Bay. It is this little lounge that I fell in love with. It didn't hurt that they had this unreal latin grooves band playing that night. So anyways, in September John Legend is playing there. I want to go so badly. This little club is so intimate and I think he would sound so incredible there. His velvet voice...I hope I can get there. *grooving to Common right now*

Okay so I'm still a dork too, I'm totally feeling the new Jermaine Dupri song..."Gotta Getcha". I'm going to take a stab in the dark and guess that this song is about his girl Janet Jackson. I want to have a song about me. Maybe not one quite like that but still, imagine knowing that you have a song written about you. I actually when I was 16 dated a guy who was the lead singer in a rock band. He wrote a song for me, but titled it "Mary Jane" as Kelsey just doesn't rhyme with anything. Or least that was what he claimed, I found out later that he was also dating three other girls at the same time and we all met at a volleyball tournament. It was sick actually. *laughing* Four 16 year old girls fighting at a school volleyball tournament. I wish I could say that my team beat all theirs but unfortunately my team sucked so badly we didn't win a game. *laughing* Although in the beginning part of one game, where the entire teams line up on opposite sides and serve balls constantly, I managed (NOT TRYING TO) to hit one of those stupid girls in the face with my serve. She got a bleeding nose and was definately going to beat me up after the game...*laugh* It never came to that, the stupid boy showed up and my vengeful bitch side took over. A lady in public....screaming bitch in private. *smiles*

My day today is going to consist of sitting outside, sun tanning and relaxing. I'm also going to work on the laundry and get the house all cleaned up. Not that it is messy but still...I like it clean as can be. Talk to y'all later.

R.I.P Peter Jennings

So a great Canadian died today. Peter Jennings. And although most Americans believe him to be their own, he is in fact a Canadian. He was a great man and an inspirational reporter. I actually have not the right words to really do him justice...so I leave it at Rest In Peace Mr. Jennings.

I got a spectacular pedicure today. My feet good incredible. And I feel better too. I feel good about having my toes all done. Makes me want to wear the most gorgeous sandals ever and just show everyone my new pretty toes. *smiles*

Monday Monday Monday. I feel a bit of a mess today. I can't decide what to wear, how to wear my hair and if I should do different makeup. Such important questions. *laughing* yea right. I need to just chill more. I need to just put on an outfit, know I look great and relax. *laughing* Alot easier said than done. Off to fiddle with my clothes.

Donalda and Kelsey are so cute.

last night we had a good time. went to the bar. had a good night, went to Dean's house and just chilled...until 5am. It was nice. It was fun. It was hilarious. From our hometown hero Vincent Clark dressed as a fisherman dancing around to Donalda making her most hilarious faces. This photo is one of how cute we are. Yes we had a bit to drink, but we are so cute. Donalda is really important to me. She is always there to make me smile when I need someone. She is my family too though. I've grown up with her. Her family is as close as my own family. I love her.

George is home in the US now. Horray! *smiles* I missed him sooooo much. I can't wait to get home to him. Turns out we're not moving back to California like I thought. We're staying in Texas for awhile. At least a year. Which is cool, I don't mind living in Texas although I was really really looking forward to being in California. I miss California so much. I miss my Californians so much. But all in good time. Hopefully we'll be posted back in San Diego. I'm so excited to leave and get into my own house with all my own stuff. My own life back again. Yea!!!!

Anyways, thats all for now. Tune in later for more exciting stuff.

My Only Guarantee.

Accept me as I am - I have no guarantee. A claim to perfection I have not. Perfect I cannot be. I like you.....am human. Prone to make mistakes. Failure is not a character flaw Just a part of the human makeup. I live I laugh and I also learn. My knowledge is incomplete. I am searching all the time in waking hours as well as sleep. I have a long road to travel as well as you do. We learn our lessons on the way. Wisdom we shall accrue. Accept me as I am Because I am ....me. And You are you. No one like me in the world. That is my only guarantee.

Sisters

Back to work today. Feeling pretty good. Thankful that I'm working with Cammille tonight. Should be a fun time. Excited for dinner. *laugh* So last night I was with Jayda and B, sitting in a nice hot tub and having some drinks until about 4am. It was great. So nice to just relax. I seem to spend a great deal of time worrying about relaxing which is kinda the opposite of actually doing the relaxing. Last week was a really tough week. I went through alot of emotions and issues but I think it has been mostly all sorted out. *smiles*

My sister is mad at me again. For what this time I have no clue. She is always stressing also. Must be a family trait although she doesn't know how to deal with stress, she just gets mad right away. I can't really blame her though...although her life is not stressful in the least. But each to their own. I can't be worried about everyone else all the time.

Only 26 more days until I'm done at the HI. I'm so excited!!!! On that note I'm going to go and spend two hours curling my hair for work. Have a great Tuesday!!!

Cowgirl Up!

Don't you just love 4 am phone calls? I certainly do. I love waking up to the phone to hear one of my friends or family just needs to talk to me, or just to talk to anyone and because I'm always up for the conversation they call me. I will admit to being a persisitant 4 am caller as well. I don't sleep well and sometimes I get myself so worked up with the day's drama that I just need to spill my guts.

So today I did something so great for myself. I bought the new John Legend album. Well ordered it since I live in the middle of nowhere in the middle of a vast country of snow...just kidding. BUt yea, it is coming from the internet somewhere and being delivered to my house next week I think. I'm so excited I could camp out the post office. I find his music not only uplifting and so incredibly inspirational but also thought provoking, like I'm driving home at 3:30am after hanging out with my lovlies and singing "Ordinary People" at the top of my lungs in my sisters little car, I'm rather surprised that I don't crash or at least the windows don't shatter out due to my magnificent singing abilities but the music moves me. He has a velvet voice, like I want to be wrapped up in his voice and learn the lyrics because I feel like it would make me a better person. I am insane.

So last night, we went out, we partied, kinda, I ended up falling asleep at the Canoe Mnt. Lodge lobby so I went home, I hate that. Stupid working at 7am. I couldn't even stay up. It was a weird night after that. I slept and talked on the phone and read. And my brother came home, left again in his truck and then came back again, without it. *confused* But back to last night, we all went out to dinner, me, B, nat, tony (nat's dad) uncle dale, vince and jordan. We went to the cariboo grill, ordered pitchers of Chi Chi's and shots of Jagermeister. It was a great night although I drank so much I totally forgot to order chocolate cheesecake, I'm thinking that they should automatically serve it much like they do that AMAZING cheesebread. It is the highlight of dinner there. Then we went back to the hotel and chilled for awhile, met Bryce and his new girl Katie, I fell asleep, got a ride to B's and drove home, yes singing my heart out. Then today I slept until 2:30pm. What a great day off, although Jenny called and told me that I need to come in to Bartend tonight...which will be fun...I think.

Other than that, not alot is new, or interesting. I'm going to go and clean my room. It is a nightmare, waking up at 5:30am isn't good for a room. I am rushing around, still asleep kinda trying to get dressed and get my face together. It is scary in there. So ttyl. Ugh. I hate that. I hate it when people type that. seems so elemetary school to me. yuck. TALK TO YOU LATER...ooiohhh...that took so long to type. Anyways, will write more later. Peace.

My Eyes

Further and Further I go, feeling the flow, making no dough, mind bright with dayglow, feeling the wind blow, wishing for snow, totally in-to the know, watching them grow, doing only so-so. Not feeling real, not knowing how to feel, or how to heal, or how to deal with the busted open seal of my mind, like the rest of mankind, feeling left all behind, looking through blind eyes. I didn't come from the streets, I'm only learning the beats, finding my own feet, going inside me for a meet and greet, I've been feeling the heat race through me, it's in my soul, but also deep down there is a big gaping hole, this is where the music sleeps,and my secret keeps aways from the sneaks and cheats. nobody can hold me back, nobody can hold me down, cause baby I'm a queen even without a crown, I'll say what I want or act like a clown, in front of the whole town. Sometimes my own lyrics can't compare to the invisible beat ringing out through the air. Through my words I urge to teach, I want to help those who just can't reach, I don't want to give that played out speech or just get stoned like Cheech, there are kids clinging like a leech to the only thing they know but they need to grow, I need to know, when to blow my flow and bring myself into the glow of the live show because these eyes know.

Gorgeous Mountain Girl

So here I am, sitting here at my computer, staring out the window at some of the most gorgeous scenery every seen. I was talking to a guy from Australia today (he looked alot like Ty from my earlier posts) and he was telling me how everyday waking up to this natural beauty would put him in the most happiest moods, (if only he was talking about me *laughing*) and I realize I've been taking it for granted. Like everything else. For instance, I talked to George today. We have our rough spots and our problems but he is a wonderful man. I definately take him for granted. As I do another close friend I have. Okay, all my friends. I tend to over-react and take things far too seriously. I need to let go a bit and just enjoy my life. *smiles*

I must have sad love song station on right now. I'm feeling all lovey and caring and junk. *laughing* I hate getting like this sober...speaking of sober, Nathalie is coming down today! Yea. I'm so stoked about that. She is awesome. Such a great girl. *smiles* We're going to have a good weekend. *smiles* Horray...good weekends...with my girls...well Donalda and Nat but those two are so great that I'm so excited. I might even stay up tonight...oooh...and I have to work tomorrow at 7am. Yuck.

Oh yea...hey TONY! I MISS YOU! Just a random shout...*smiles* In case you might be reading this...*smiles*

I need to eat...I'm wasting away...*laughing* Yea right...but still gotta keep up my girlish figure...*wink* Have a great night.

i love canada

I'm so tired today. I didn't get anything done today. Got up, went to work, went to Cammie's, went to dinner, checked my email and heading to bed. Booring! Aww, Cammie's sister was here today and she has pink in her hair...I MISS MY PINK! so much. I want it back so badly. *sigh*

Other than that, not alot is new. Well nothing really. *laugh* I'm feeling good today. It rained all day though. I can't wait to get back to Cali and back to the sunshine, and shopping and hookah and George. I miss him so much. I miss my California people alot. Especially in the summer...we had such great summers.

I'll keep this one short. How are you all!?!? Email me. rhianen@hotmail.com

Stay Alive

Just some words from inside:

Then I see you standing there, wanting more from me and all I can do is cry because I really can't say goodbye, my eyes begin to cry and I fight it, look at the sky and wish I could fly. We are free, free to be me, free to see, free to flee whenever something happens to be more for you than for me, like waves in the sea, crashing happily without remedy. I'm on a lyrical mission cause I've got a guilty addiction, red letters give me this affliction, I'm in a bad condition, I lay here alone feeling the pain, again and again, it is always the same, a beauty game, there is no one to blame, but a demon to tame before I go insane from these chains hung around my heart to keep it from falling apart, from the start, an unreadable chart. For all the beautiful things going on in the world today, for all those feeling the passion of the flame, for all those taming the blame and rejecting the game, you are the ones to whom I reach and urge to teach, life is a beach, there is danger if you go in too deep, but happiness can be yours to keep if you stay in the sand and walk hand in hand with your life unplanned and not held down by the banned. Embrace the sun, enjoy yourself, have fun, thats me I'm done living a fake lie, living by the roll of someone else's die, trying to please the guy, all I do is try, by and by, I will survive and stay alive.

Approved!

*dancing around in a little cirlce* I got an email from immigration today and it says that my I130 has been approved. I'm so excited!!!! I'm not sure still what it means...but I think it means I get to go home soon! Look out California.

I can't wait to get back to the US. Seriously, I love Canada but I can't wait to get back into my real life. My own car, my own house, my own stuff and of course my friends and husband. I'm beyond stoked to get my life back in order. But I am going to miss everyone here sooo much. I love my friends here. You know, I thank god for them every night. Without these awesome people, I would be so lost in the woods. Litterally.

I have to run off, I need to have a foot soak, my feet are super sore. I hope that everyone is great and I hope to hear from you all soon! If you want to see more of my photos, I upload about 100 every week or two, email me and I'll send you a link to all my online photos.

xoxo kelsey

What's up with the bugs?

So in one week two of my friends have eaten bugs. I will be posting a photo of the bug Vince ate. It is disgusting. He managed to chew it and then spit it out. It was gross. I'll be sure to post the link to the photos. Vince Eating the BUG!

In more exciting news. Okay, I'm a big dork but I've been watching Rockstar:INXS. Maybe partly because I have a crush on Dave Navarro or perhaps I just am interested in getting in the middle of him and his beautiful bride Carmen Elektra. Anyways, I met Ty tonight...via my tv. I think I might be in love. He has this voice that makes me melt and isn't even performing the type of music I like. I'm not a rock fan actually. But Ty, yes that is a photo of him. Black, a mohawk, tattooed, sings...*I'm still married, I'm still married, I'm still married.* Moving right along...

We went to Jasper today. I'm really pumped that I'm not hung over. I got a little drunk last night. I love drinking. I love getting drunk. I felt so happy! It is insane. Thankfully I don't do it near as much as in California. I sat around with all of my friends and had a wonderful BBQ. It was such a fantastic day off. We had burgers and then drank, well I drank since the beginning of the afternoon, and then sat around the fire. Yes more and more photos to follow. I'll be uploading them tonight or maybe tomorrow. Not alot of casualties last night either. Nicole got her hand burned by Donalda's flaming marshmallow but hey, there are always some accidents involved with making s'mores. But it was really fun because Jen had never made s'mores and she LOVES chocolate...such fun.

Back to Jasper. We went, me and Mum and Nicole. It was a good day...although I was planning on buying alot and didn't buy hardly anything. I got this super cool eyeliner powder. It is going to be really neat to play with. Other than that, got a new book and some other boring makeup. Boring but necessary.


I'm heading to bed...I'm tired and I have to be back in hell tomorrow at seven am. Have a great night!

I really REALLY want this tattoo...

so last night I had this incredible dream. and no, i'm not going to write about it here. it is so personal to me and so important to me that i want to keep it all to myself. i've been in and out of daydreams today remembering it. wow. so perfect. you know when you have those dreams that you feel that you have to write down so you don't forget them? it was one of those and instead of writing it down i emailed it to my love who the dream was all about...*smiles* I'm such a romantic.

in other news, my plans of getting wasted last night fizzled for sure. i'm going through alot of things right now and well, drinking isn't one of them. i'm having some heart problems, not medically but emotionally. i am so in love that it hurts...imagine. It is wonderful and not wonderful all at the same time. but I'm cool with it, because a love like this only comes around once.

so yea, went to the bar last night, saw friends I haven't seen since high school and that was six years ago! while it was great to see them, it was also hard because i feel like we're not close at all anymore and that sucks. but that is life...right?

my cousin katie stopped by today. CONGRATS to her, she and John are getting married next summer. I'm so excited for her. She has such a beauiful soul and such gorgeous little boys. i hope her and i remain close forever...she is awesome.

work still sucks.

i am tired and feeling a bit drained. i'm off to read a bit and write a letter to a special someone...peace yall.

k

My Apologies

Good Morning Sunshine! yea right. Good morning more pouring rain. Although it looks like it might go away...(hoping.) So last night was a terrible night at work. I actually couldn't even go out afterwards, I had too much of a headache and was in too bad of a mood. I hate the hotel. Yep, I said it. I love my job, and SOME of my co-workers but the bullshit is just too much. It is actually taking the happy part of me away. I find myself feeling a bit empty and extreamly frusterated after leaving there. Not to mention working with stupid people. I'm not going to mention any names but HOW STUPID CAN YOU BE AT YOUR AGE!!?!?!? Seriously. Anyways, enough. I'm trying to cut back on the negative, I need a new job, one that doesn't make me into this wicked little witch I've been lately. Woosa.

If you're reading this and I've been crazy, obsessive, moody, emotional, over-dramatic, bitter, selfish or any other adjective that is less than pleasant, I definately apologize. I'd like to point out that if you are reading this right now, that we are friends and when we first became friends I was not like this and I want to let you know that it too will pass. Just the usual stress and such of being away from those I love and not even able to get into the country I want to live in...not to mention the above paragraph. Woosa.

I am thinking about getting totally looser wasted tonight. *laugh* Imagine. What a plan I have. I get off work at 11pm and I think I am going to get some wine, hang out with my good friends and just release all the bad stuff. I want to mention that I love my friends. I don't know what I would do without them. It kinda sucks that I have two close groups of friends, each in opposite ends of my life...meaning, I have my friends in California and my friends here in Canada (pictured above, missing Nicki, Corey, Kari and Emily). Both are so important to my life but both are so far from each other and to be honest, I don't think that they would mesh well together. However, I don't know...I am not the catalyst of either group so perhaps they would. Anyways, back to tonight. So..yea...don't be surprised to read something ridiculous here tonight...and for those of you who I have your cell numbers...watch out! Woosa.

A "bigger" girl

So I'm talking to Steve today (he is my finacial advisor although we've never met, he was assigned to me.) He is saying how he knows someone from the same town that I live in. He can't really remember her name but says to me "she has this sister, you know, a bigger girl." I'm kinda silent for a bit and then mention that I do know who he is talking about and that yes her sister is a bigger girl. He senses my irritation with this statement and says "there is nothing wrong with bigger girls." NO SHIT! I say that I'm quite positive that "bigger girls" (which I over accentuate) are much better than non-bigger girls. (Not to cause offense to any of you who are reading this.) He is kinda silent for a minute and changes the subject but I don't fall for that...I tell him that with all of the pain being caused in the world that there is no reason for a persons weight to be a trigger for them anymore. I tell him that I am probably one of the biggest girls he knows that I'm sick and tired of "fat" being a degrogatory word. I'm done with being big equal to being bad. Us "bigger girls" are not disgusting because we are not a size 6 or 10 or 15. Just a usual fat rant. Yea I'm fat...deal with it.

Cammille ate a moth

OMG!!!

So, after work, and much drinking on behalf of the girls, we cram seven people into the charriott and are off to the bar. Pretty happening place but when nine girls walk in things really get going. My girlfriend Cammille has here seven best friends come to visit, so we are trying to show them a good time. The bar ends with nothing really eventful happening, well aside from some weird white guy breakdancing and the steady threat of flashing boobs from old nasty cougars, so we decide to go a party, not just any party either, a trailer party. Okay, so call me bitchy or snobby but I don't really dig trailers, and I especially don't dig them with parties attached with random guys who stare at my boobs (i realize they are kinda big, get over it already!) So after a few more drinks and trips outside to pee (i'm so thankful I wasn't drinking) a moth flies into the house, I mean trailer...Uncle Dale (who is nobody's uncle really) catches it and jokes about eating for five bucks, somehow this poor little furry insect ends up in Cammille's hand and after much hooahing and dooooits she says "show me the money" and they do, about $28.00 goes down, plus some change and so does it. Yes she actually swollowed it. She blows my mind. And if you're wondering if Cammille is some handcore renegade dirt girl, thats her in the photo with me above this...yes...such a pretty girl...with such a dirty mouth...ewww...

Thursday Morning

So, I'm back to work today. Feels like monday. Feels like a shitty monday. Although I will note that the sun is shinning for the first time in months...two months to be exact. I know that most of my american amigos think that Canada is cold and snowy but let me tell you, we USUALLY have the most remarkable summers...totally hot and gorgeous. We have had neither of those things yet...until today. Yea...summer might have officially arrived.

So, I got news from INS...I get to take my citizenship test in approximately 992 days. So...what does that mean? not alot quite yet. I'm still waiting on my K3 visa to get back into the United States. Do I ever have big plans for going home too. Got people to see and things to do.

So hows that for my first blog. Keep tuned in. Much more drama to come.