today is another day

My Three Beautiful Things for today:

1. It was a chilly 75 degrees or so today, it was a lovely change from the usual 95.
2. I finally had a wonderful night sleep, thank you Dr. Burch.
3. I got a genuine, happy-to-see-you face today from one of our regular clients. He is an older gentleman from Egypt and is just such a friendly guy, it was a long day at work and his smile made the day.

SO yes, I finally got some actual sleep. ALthough I feel extreamly lathargic today. At least I slept well last night. It's been a good day, although a long day.

I'll write more later...still haven't heard from G.

Wednesday is Wild

Hello Wednesday!

My Beautiful things today:

1. The A/C broke in the gym this morning...and so I just did the treadmill portion of my usual and then left because the rest of the gym was closed and I ended up running into a man I've been wanting to meet, or rather wanting George to meet. He is one of the SR. Officers here on the base and the husband of one of my co-workers, it was a total fluke, but good nonetheless.

2. I redisovered my love for R&B. I played oldies from the 90's and just fell in love.

3. Finally got my "womans" exam today...and it wasn't nearly as bad as usual, they are the most friendly people ever at my doctors.

Other than those things, not alot else is new. I think I may have lost one of my best friends last night. He is being a total dick, if you're reading this, you are being a total dick. I was only kidding about the comment that I made and he flew off the handle...then again, he doesn't know the inside joke about the statement "valleygirl" but then again, one should be able to read scarcasm when talking to me. Secondly, for someone to get all up in my face about a joke, obviously there are underlying issues. He has alot going on in his life right now and I just never really seem to fit in. Or rather, only when he wants something from me...it's kinda sad really. But he is a very important person in my life. I adore him...but this cat and mouse fighting game we've been playing for years is getting tiresome. So...I wish him nothing but the very very best because he deserves it and one day, I hope he realizes that. It just sucks to lose yet another friend. Especially this one.

k

Three Beautiful Things

I have taken inspiration for this blog...each time I post, I will post three beautiful things that happened also. *smiles*

1. Kathy told me that I have immense talent in social work and should pursue it.
2. Peppermint-Mocha Coffee Mate
3. CIBC Mahar...he is the nicest and most polite CIBC employee who doesn't know me.

Kelsey Does Houston

Well hello again!

So last week I was in Houston, it was an adventure for sure. It wasn't what I expected though. It was populated with leafy green trees and there was no hint of moisture in the air. Horray! NO humidity to stifle me. I had a great time.

We first checked into the Westin Galleria, it is the best hotel, next to the HI at home...it has a Louis Vuitton store in the bottom of it! As well as my ultra favourite makeup store, MAC. It was a match made in Heaven! I was in Houston for the Governors Leadership Conference. The conference itself was a bit of a gong show, but the presenters were great.

Our first night there, we went to dinner a Fogo De Chao. Yummy. It's a Brazillion place. Then Guacho's (the waiters) run around with skewers of meat, 15 different types, and serve you as much as you want, as many times as you want. You get this little round thing, looks like a coaster, in fact, I used mine as one until our Gaucho pointed out that it isn't a coaster...I felt a little silly but how would I ever know. Anyways, one side of the coaster is green and says yes please and other cute Brazillion things that I couldn't read...and the other side is red and says no thank you. When you want the meat brought around, you flip up the green side, I went green most of the night...and when you're done you put red, but you can't stop and go whenever you want, because the Gaucho's are continuously running around. We stopped and goed quite a few times and left feeling like I ate an entire cow. They had the most devine (sorry Cariboo Grill) filet mignon, which I ate mostly and this unreal parmesan pork. We had almost every other type of meat they had, no fish, and it was all excellent. They have have a huge salad bar with different types of sliced meat and cheese, salad, veggies and fruit. They bring you fried bananas and polenta...all in all, the best meal ever. If you're ever in Houston definately go there, YUM!

After that we hit the Roxy, there seems to be one in every town...and it was a really nice nightclub although, for ladies night, it was pretty slow. Not to worry for us though, we just had some cocktails and just hung out for awhile.

The next day we went to Ikea to do a little shopping, thank you Ikea! My bedroom finally looks like a married couple lives there and not some college freshman! I bought these awesome lamps and bedside tables...and this incredible mirror...come see, it looks great!

We went to the President's Reception that night, which was a total nightmare, people were literally fighting over the food...it was crazy! I ended up having two pieces of cake in about 4 minutes and then heading out somewhere else, so everyone else could eat. The dessert table was the only place not getting attacked by the food vultures!

Basically that concludes my trip to Houston, there are more details, but nothing very exciting...*laugh* Houston is a great city, I can't wait to visit again and explore a little more of Cowtown.

And YAY Canucks for beating the Oilers, about damn time too!

Anxious Times

Good Morning Good Morning,

So whats new with me you ask? Not a whole lot. I've been going to the gym for two weeks now, every single morning and unfortunately i've gained 3 pounds! *laugh* Although I'm pretty sure it's muscle...or at least I'm sure hoping so.

Other than that, time is slowly ticking by until G gets home. I have so much emotional issues tied to his return. I'm happy, sad, anxious, excited, nervous, scared...etc. We have had too many issues over the past little while, and then all this business with another girl...which makes me sick still...I'm not going to go into any details, but I'll say he didn't sleep with her. And I just want to make posters about how much I hate her, but I can't...*soft smile* It isn't my nature to hate someone so much, and well, it isn't all her fault. Thankfully G ended in before it really began with her but still, he lied to me about it, and thats bad enough. And we can't seen each other since I found out about all of this...so I'm nervous about how our reunion will be. I really hope we will be okay. I really really really hope so. I love him with all my heart, but there is only so much one heart can take...

In other news, I'm working at the Navy and Marine Corp Relief Society. I love it. The girls that work there are incredible. I've become very attached to them and not only that, the work itself is really rewarding. Alot of times we're helping service members who dug themselves into a hole, but sometimes we are genuinly helping people in need and it feels to good to be making a difference. I'm also learning alot more about the Navy which is really cool. I'm proud to be a Sailor's Wife. Even though my Sailors friends and family don't know it. *laugh* ALthough, I did tell one of his friends, who I consider to be my friend. It isn't a big deal, it was just a situational thing and one day we will (hopefully) have our wedding. And if not, perhaps it isn't meant to be.

I'm not depressed but I'm just realizing alot of things now that my mind isn't totally preoccupied with getting here. There are certain things that a man has to do in a relationship and I haven't really given G the chance to do those things...and so he maybe forgot about them or whatever. It was really important to me for him to ask my Dad if he could marry me, and then we had to get married early and not tell anyone, stupid military...but now that can never happen. It is also really really important to me for G to propose, but we're already married going on 4 years and he has never proposed to me. I don't know really if this is still what he wants. We have never really talked about it. I mean, we talked about being together forever and how much we love each other, but we never had the lets get married talk. We got married because the military wouldn't take care of me if anything happened to G...and we'd already been together for 3 years at that point...but we never talked about if we were ready or sure about each other. The reason I say this is because I have no doubt, absolutely no doubt in my mind that G is the one for me. I love him more than anything else and wouldn't change a thing about him personally. However, I don't think he feels the same way towards me, in fact, I know that he doesn't. He wants to change alot about me, and well, I don't know that he views me as the soulmate he has always wanted. I poured out my heart a few days ago, in two very long emails, as he is only reachable by email over there right now, and he never responded. I basically told him yesterday not to contact me until he responds to those emails. There are alot of things I need to know. I feel like we're rebuilding but in order to do that, we need to break down all the old shitty parts...but only time will tell.

In other news, I'm really pissed, I rented Bridget Jones=The Edge of Reason and it doesn't work, I'm upset because I was really looking forward to watching it, stupid netflix!

My heart goes out to the Amish community in Lancaster PA, 5 little girls are now in heaven, and their killer will never recieve proper judgement or punishment. I can't really talk about this, as I don't have the right words. RIP.

I will try to update here more often.

k